Quotes In My Pocket

I'm reading everything again. Recapitulate. I want to post some interesting (?) alternatively meanful texts from my old articles. I know it might seem selfish. But i don't wanna forgot theese "quotes". This is the part one - until the April.
Do you like any of them?

December

"I wish you happy new year with no stress and depression. 2013 is going to be better than 2012. I hope so. Everyone deserve to feel better, believe me." Btw: This is the better year.

"I do have so gorgeous mum. Even if she is not and never was like Donna. But I don't mind. She keeps my family together and I can talk with her and trust her. I wish I can make her proud one day. " Btw: I've made her proud 3 months later.

January

I'll be girl who run away for better life. 

"I need to work in friendly environment with motivation. I don't wanna just surviving day by day." 

"One day I'll live somewhere faraway and everything what makes me miserable will be only a memory. I don't know how I know it, but will run away."

"I'll be myself. I'll live my own way. I'll meet my lost friend. I will make myself and my parents proud. I'll be happy and free." Btw: Done.

"I'm just watching my life wonder what if and daydreaming at school."

"I should not care about what people thinks about me. But I do care even if I'm smiling and pretending that everything is OK."

"I hate being (and feeling) alone in a crowd. What if the ugliest girl at school has more friends than I?!"

I'm sorry, but I love this one: "Schooldays are like bubblegums - sweet at the beginning, but then they are losing flavor and you get bored by chewing them." It's my own idea

"I can't just believe that everything will be ok and think positive for real."

February

Last five years

"I don't party all day, all night. I hate this kind of fun. I don't smore or drink at all. I'm not wild. And I'm ok with it. People should be ok with it too. Cause I'm not gonna change myself to belong. I wouldn't feel like I belong anyway. Because I don't. I'm me."

Read this one if you want. You know whats is sad? I don't believe in it anymore. It would be nice, though. Because as I wrote...

"It's the only thing which is worth it to believe in. Because if everyone will know and act with people as equals it'll come true. People will be finally taken as equal becouse they are equal! People just have to start believe in equality of rights."

March

"I found out, that I like to help people with ordinary things."

"I can't stand when are people mean at me. Now they aren't, but I've read my old diary and it remind me something."

"You know what is most important feeling in the world? Happiness."

"I just wanna spend holidays in my own happy way."

"If my 8 year old self would met me, she would be proud. I'm sure and it makes me happy."

"Dear Katie, succes doesn't make you happy. I mean it's not most important thing in life. Happines doesn't come from being succesful. It comes from your soul."

Goodbye 2012

What I've done in 2012

Last year, 31.12.2011 I posted my 2012 wishes. Some of my wishes have get fulfilled. Let's look.
I haven't lived like every they would be my last. But I had days when I felt like that day is my last, because I anticipate a catastrophe in next days. It was very annoying. I am not keen on this advice/wish.

I were not always happy, but I had genuinely happy moments.

I've forgiven someone who acted bad with me.

Well, I haven't written book. But I have written some tales and essays. It's not bad start, don't you think? I'm not going to write a book (anymore), because I don't know what to write about.

I think that I found myself. Sometimes I'm not sure who I really am. I feel like I've really known who I am and who I am not. I'm changing, but not much. I'll always be an introvert and a thinker.I am not completely myself. Me at school and me at home are completely different people and I'm OK with it. I don't want to show myself more that I've done before... "be myself" wasn't really wise wish. Maybe I've been myself more that I've wanted to be. What if real me is that worthless lonely person, who is always afraid of anything? Can I deal with it? I shouldn't write it, because I wanna think positive...but what if I'm not good enough to be myself?

Am I stronger person? I am not sure. Maybe I am a bit stronger than last year, but I'm still weak.

Finally something what I am sure about! I have been in London at spring 2012. I were better than I thought It will be, but "surprisingly" I don't want to move to London. I know better cities and no, I am not thinking about New York. I've never been somebody who totally love London or England. It's fine country, but I've never wanted to live there. I haven't ever been and I'll never be keen on London.

I haven't counted books which I've read some books. I read slower than I read last year. Let's write that I've fulfilled the wish, even If I am not sure about it.

I've found new friend. I've got few friends. We aren't BFF. But I know that they're not false. I'm glad I have them. Does it mean that I've found true friends? I hope so. I don't wanna lose them.

This is a mystery for me. I have no Idea if were better than last year.

I've been in Greek and England. We did stop near Nürnberg and I were happy about it. We weren't in Nürnberg, unfortunately, but I've seen Nürnberg afar. It was beautiful view. I'd like to travel to Germany.

I've had fun. Not everyday, but It's not matter. I were not bored at all in 2012.

I'm not going to post 2013 wishes. Maybe you'd like to know that in my country is already year 2013. I wish you happy new year with no stress and depression. 2013 is going to be better than 2012. I hope so. Everyone deserve to feel better, believe me. Good night, sweet dreams.