Quotes In My Pocket - Part Two

April

"The point is that Charlie's story is so real... I swear, you will love it. I was so touched by this story... People writes that it made them cry. But i personally didn't cry at all."

"Sometimes you have to do something what is normal."

"I'd rather do million another things in my free time. Bad luck, i'll have to dance with some guys (or worse... classmates), because it's what normal people usually does."

"Sometimes, when i'm with kids i feel like i go back to my childhood. I'm not saying i'm not OK with my age. Moreover, i'd like to be older... But it's amazing to spend time with children that love you no matter what."

"I feel like i should impress people. I'm afraid they won't like my favorite music, film, book, whatever."

"I was looking at an old pictures and wishing i clould go back to that moment."

"I thought: Everybody looks happy. Except me. I felt like i don't have anyone to talk to. "

"We hadn't seen either texted each other for couple months and now we just go out and talk and i hope everything will be ok again?"

"We were just together. And that was enough."

May

"I was so afraid to send it, but i've done it. I don't really know how to feel about it."

"I have to stay strong and polite."

"She was my sunshine on a rainy day."

"I don't want us to be strangers again."

Quotes In My Pocket

I'm reading everything again. Recapitulate. I want to post some interesting (?) alternatively meanful texts from my old articles. I know it might seem selfish. But i don't wanna forgot theese "quotes". This is the part one - until the April.
Do you like any of them?

December

"I wish you happy new year with no stress and depression. 2013 is going to be better than 2012. I hope so. Everyone deserve to feel better, believe me." Btw: This is the better year.

"I do have so gorgeous mum. Even if she is not and never was like Donna. But I don't mind. She keeps my family together and I can talk with her and trust her. I wish I can make her proud one day. " Btw: I've made her proud 3 months later.

January

I'll be girl who run away for better life. 

"I need to work in friendly environment with motivation. I don't wanna just surviving day by day." 

"One day I'll live somewhere faraway and everything what makes me miserable will be only a memory. I don't know how I know it, but will run away."

"I'll be myself. I'll live my own way. I'll meet my lost friend. I will make myself and my parents proud. I'll be happy and free." Btw: Done.

"I'm just watching my life wonder what if and daydreaming at school."

"I should not care about what people thinks about me. But I do care even if I'm smiling and pretending that everything is OK."

"I hate being (and feeling) alone in a crowd. What if the ugliest girl at school has more friends than I?!"

I'm sorry, but I love this one: "Schooldays are like bubblegums - sweet at the beginning, but then they are losing flavor and you get bored by chewing them." It's my own idea

"I can't just believe that everything will be ok and think positive for real."

February

Last five years

"I don't party all day, all night. I hate this kind of fun. I don't smore or drink at all. I'm not wild. And I'm ok with it. People should be ok with it too. Cause I'm not gonna change myself to belong. I wouldn't feel like I belong anyway. Because I don't. I'm me."

Read this one if you want. You know whats is sad? I don't believe in it anymore. It would be nice, though. Because as I wrote...

"It's the only thing which is worth it to believe in. Because if everyone will know and act with people as equals it'll come true. People will be finally taken as equal becouse they are equal! People just have to start believe in equality of rights."

March

"I found out, that I like to help people with ordinary things."

"I can't stand when are people mean at me. Now they aren't, but I've read my old diary and it remind me something."

"You know what is most important feeling in the world? Happiness."

"I just wanna spend holidays in my own happy way."

"If my 8 year old self would met me, she would be proud. I'm sure and it makes me happy."

"Dear Katie, succes doesn't make you happy. I mean it's not most important thing in life. Happines doesn't come from being succesful. It comes from your soul."

Days spend with her

Yeah, so screw New York!

On wednesday (1st May) we met outside and talked for a while. After that, we went to my room. I lend her my favorite book. Moreover she read the story i've written. She likes it. It's nice when you see a friend laughing to something what is supposed to be funny. We decided to play The sims 3. Friend hasn't played it before. So we created a Sim. I showed her city and told her what to do. This doesn't sound like fun, though it was. I choose to be happy. A day spend with friend is always a day spend well.

The best Friday ever

We haven't planned that we spend 3rd May together. Notwithstanding she texted me she won't have time on weekend. So we changed pans and went out on Friday afternoon. It turned out to the day we enjoyed so much, tough it was raining. She were my sunshine on a rainy day. We talked and smiled alot. We took pictures. We were listening to my favorite music (Everything has changed, Stay, You take me there and Back to december) which had a meaning. We played our favorite The sims 3. 

We were going to go the house of my friend. I was raining but we didn't mind. We had an umbrella. We talked about the old times and it was pretty amazing. I love those talks with my friend. We went to her house to see a Marley. It's a dog who fetches a ball, jumps... Marley is just awesome. She took a care of him. Then we came back to my place to continue in playing the sims 3. No worries. Mom prepared a dinner for us. When it stopped raining and we stand in front of the my house, hugged goodbye. She said: "Today it was a good day." I smiled: "Yeah." I don't want us to be strangers again. 

Back together

I spend a Saturday with my old friend. We hadn't seen each other in 9 months. Don't ask me why. We don't really know. She's studying in another city. We're not so close as we used to be. Nothing bad have happened between us. She left without a single word.

...

In Thursday she send me a long message and I answered and send her that "picture with text" and wrote: "this is accurate". I was so happy she texted me because i wouldn't text her on my own. Even tough i missed her too.



I've already written, that we spend the Saturday afternoon together. We talked so much about life and everything. I found that she doesn't have a friend   in her class either. It's so...i don't know... i feel better, when i know i'm not the only one, who doesn't. Incidentally she doesn't get well with her room-mate. We played The Sims 2 (at her place) just like the old times.

She still means a lot to me. I hope we can be friends again. I know it sounds crazy. We hadn't seen either texted each other for couple months and now we just go out and talk and i hope everything will be ok again? Maybe i'm naive. But I've know her all my life. Something like a best friend. I missed the old times... how happy i was with her. So many memories. Suddenly the one that got away came back. We were just together. And that was enough.

Happy moments

Wow, I am really surprised of the number of my readers! I mean views of my blog. Thank you so much! Wish you write some comments. What's up people? Are you too lazy to write few words? It would make me happy. Anyway I'm glad I've got readers from almost all over the world. Could you follow my blog, please? I wonder if you're coming back to read what I've written. Could you just let me know you're here please? It would be nice. Thanx!

This week is something special, because I spend schooldays with my friends. I'm enjoying it. It's nice to know, that I'm not alone. I feel like I belong. I just have somebody to talk to. Life isn't perfect. At some lessons I'm bored and I can't wait to go home but anyway... I'm OK. It's so important to feel OK. I don't wanna stress anymore. Btw: Waking up for school is still problem for me.

I saw the Silver lining Playbook last night. I have to tell you it's wonderful movie. Jennifer Lawrence was excellent. I'm sure you know that she received Oscar for the best actress. If you want to see something what remind you what is life about, than you have to see the Silver lining Playbook. It's an amazing emotional story about love and life.

Feel good

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I'm not going anywhere. Now I'm really satisfied with my life. Nothing is perfect, you know. This friday have been the best friday of whole month. Succesful day, which I truly enjoyed. I feld useful and I spoke to fine people. Me and my friend (one of a few good friends) had fun. It was one of those moments when you realize you're happy. I would thank god if I believe in any. I thank my friend for being there for me instead. I know she won't read this but nevermind. I'm not gonna tell anyone about this blog. It's my secret.

Do you know what is unbelievable? One day I'm desperate of my life (fake smile on) and my mind is full of worries. Another day (i mean tomorrow) I'm happy of my life, I'm smiling and don't feel alone. I don't have to wake up so early as usual tomorrow. Hope you feel good too!

Limited edition

Well, I should be studying right now. But i need to tell you, that...inter alia... I hate this kind of dance, retro and worries. I don't belong here. I'm not looking forward to a future. I don't wanna think about it. That morning when you wish you could sleep forever. Me and my friends, we aren't alike but... we all don't belong. People think that we are weird. But when we are together I feel amazing (becouse i'm not alone) and I don't care if we are weird limited edition.




God, I haven't heard this song for several months. It's so true. I'm not listeng it now, but this photo remind me how I've sang it (only for myself) few years ago. I loved Hillary Duff.

Me and my BF loved The Lizzie Mcguire movie. We used to listen and sing these songs with my BF. Don't laugh we were about 13 year old, lol. Sometimes you miss the memories, not the person. I wonder how much people change. I miss an old times. 

This is my city

The lonely

I just remembered this awesome song. Cassie is the best serial character ever. ♥ She is so lovely. One day I'll run to my city too.

Sometimes I just feel this way. I hate being (and feeling) alone in a crowd. What if the ugliest girl at school has more friends than I?! I don't mean that I'm pretty. I'm trying to tell you that I'm just in wrong class. Her classmates are my friends too. They spend time with her, couse I'm not their classmate. She isn't really sympathic (not only because of her appearance), but she has got true friends. I'm quite sure that she is not alone as often as I. I wonder why? Why is the world so unfair? Maybe I just don't understand what being fair means at this planet. Why do I care about how many friends she has? It doesn't matter, I'm alone anyway.

Movie

The day before Christmas

I decorated a Christmas tree with my family. Annually we pushed the movie Mamma Mia! except Christmas Carols. You might find it a bit weird, but it became our tradition. We - I and my mum - love that movie! We have seen Mamma mia! for hundred times. It's just an amazing story. I understand that for some people it might be old fashioned and they don't like the music. Anyway it is one of our most favorite movies. 

When I think about character, I like Sophie most. I'd like to have best friend like Donna, Tanya and Rosie. To have someone who will grow up with you. Friends forever. I have friends, I really like them, but...I wonder if is it real friendship. Are we like best friend from movies? Nope.

I would never stop love Mamma Mia movie. That scene before wedding, when Donna is helping her daughter. I do have so gorgeous mum. Even if is not and never was like Donna. But I don't mind. She keeps my family together and I can talk with her and trust her. I wish I can make her proud one day. 

I love her so much!

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