Sit and think

Now i seem like Taylor's fan, which i am not. I simply like this song.

I've done it. I break my Wednesday tradition yesterday. I was doing my hair (put curlers) because of today's photography (nothing special, simply anually photo of whole class) and i forgot. Interesting fact: I was absolutely happy yesterday. I studied for a history test with my friend (doesn't sound like fun, but it was, honest) and be both passed the test quite well. It was a day spend with a few nice people, unexpectedly at school. We talked and laughed a lot. I was looking at an old pictures and wishing i clould go back to that moment. There were my cousins, aunt, grandma brother and me in a Zoo, two years ago. They make me upset sometimes, even so I adore them so much. It's my family. Nobody gets left behind of forgotten.

I saw this photo on weheartit.com yesterday and thought : "Now and again! :)))" i was truly happy and satisfied with my life. It doesn't happen every day. Today i am not, for example. No big deal. I'm fine. I'm just not happy.

My class (and teacher) went to confectioner's instead of gym. Don't care about details, we just went there to buy some ice-cream and desserts. I don't really have a group or friends in my class. I get well (talk) with classmates, everything is ok in this way, but we are not friends. I'd sit with someone but all tables were placed so i sat alone. I smiled often. I was thinking about life and waiting for my raspberries with ice-cream.
I thought: "Everybody looks happy. Except me." I felt like i don't have anyone to talk to. However i wasn't sad.

I knew i have a friends. They just weren't there that's all. So i was lonely... for five years now. You know, i am not lonely all the time. In some groups of people, i just feel lonely, most of time. I don't worry about it. As i have written i get well with that people and i'm really happy about it. I can't complain. Of course i'd rather be in class with my friends, if you asking. Nevertheless i'm fine. At least i don't have any enemies. Do you remember the Midnight in Paris? This thought is snappy:

Limited edition

Well, I should be studying right now. But i need to tell you, that...inter alia... I hate this kind of dance, retro and worries. I don't belong here. I'm not looking forward to a future. I don't wanna think about it. That morning when you wish you could sleep forever. Me and my friends, we aren't alike but... we all don't belong. People think that we are weird. But when we are together I feel amazing (becouse i'm not alone) and I don't care if we are weird limited edition.




God, I haven't heard this song for several months. It's so true. I'm not listeng it now, but this photo remind me how I've sang it (only for myself) few years ago. I loved Hillary Duff.

Me and my BF loved The Lizzie Mcguire movie. We used to listen and sing these songs with my BF. Don't laugh we were about 13 year old, lol. Sometimes you miss the memories, not the person. I wonder how much people change. I miss an old times.