"The point is that Charlie's story is so real... I swear, you will love it. I was so touched by this story... People writes that it made them cry. But i personally didn't cry at all."
"Sometimes you have to do something what is normal."
"I'd rather do million another things in my free time. Bad luck, i'll have to dance with some guys (or worse... classmates), because it's what normal people usually does."
"Sometimes, when i'm with kids i feel like i go back to my childhood. I'm not saying i'm not OK with my age. Moreover, i'd like to be older... But it's amazing to spend time with children that love you no matter what."
"I feel like i should impress people. I'm afraid they won't like my favorite music, film, book, whatever."
"I was looking at an old pictures and wishing i clould go back to that moment."
"I thought: Everybody looks happy. Except me. I felt like i don't have anyone to talk to. "
"We hadn't seen either texted each other for couple months and now we just go out and talk and i hope everything will be ok again?"
"We were just together. And that was enough."
May
"I was so afraid to send it, but i've done it. I don't really know how to feel about it."
Now i seem like Taylor's fan, which i am not. I simply like this song.
I've done it. I break my Wednesday tradition yesterday. I was doing my hair (put curlers) because of today's photography (nothing special, simply anually photo of whole class) and i forgot. Interesting fact: I was absolutely happy yesterday. I studied for a history test with my friend (doesn't sound like fun, but it was, honest) and be both passed the test quite well. It was a day spend with a few nice people, unexpectedly at school. We talked and laughed a lot. I was looking at an old pictures and wishing i clould go back to that moment. There were my cousins, aunt, grandma brother and me in a Zoo, two years ago. They make me upset sometimes, even so I adore them so much. It's my family. Nobody gets left behind of forgotten.
I saw this photo on weheartit.com yesterday and thought : "Now and again! :)))" i was truly happy and satisfied with my life. It doesn't happen every day. Today i am not, for example. No big deal. I'm fine. I'm just not happy.
My class (and teacher) went to confectioner's instead of gym. Don't care about details, we just went there to buy some ice-cream and desserts. I don't really have a group or friends in my class. I get well (talk) with classmates, everything is ok in this way, but we are not friends. I'd sit with someone but all tables were placed so i sat alone. I smiled often. I was thinking about life and waiting for my raspberries with ice-cream.
I thought: "Everybody looks happy. Except me." I felt like i don't have anyone to talk to. However i wasn't sad.
I knew i have a friends. They just weren't there that's all. So i was lonely... for five years now. You know, i am not lonely all the time. In some groups of people, i just feel lonely, most of time. I don't worry about it. As i have written i get well with that people and i'm really happy about it. I can't complain. Of course i'd rather be in class with my friends, if you asking. Nevertheless i'm fine. At least i don't have any enemies. Do you remember the Midnight in Paris? This thought is snappy:
I can't stop thinking about what happend and what would (or will) happen. I think too much. I think about everything, about people, ideas, stories, about my life and me. I wanna stop caring about what anyone thinks. But it's too hard for me. I can't just believe that everything will be ok and think positive for real. I have to acept that past is past. Need to stop worrying about unsure future. Being unhappy is not a solution. Maybe music is actually the best solution to any problem.
One of these texts
"God already has the solution." "Are you kidding me?! God doesn't even exist!" No one will save you. Deal with it. Crap about god won't change anything. I don't understand to people who believe in god. They wear t-shirts with cross, cross necklaces and rings. Is it necesarry? I don't understand them. They are in my age, believe in god, wear that clothes and think positive. Where do they come from? Why are they lying to yourself? Nobody will solve the problem for you. True is that no one knows the right solution neither answer. You have to try the invalid one.
"I was looking at an old pictures and wishing i clould go back to that moment."
